HOOKED
Hey fammm 😍, it’s been quite some time and I’m sure you missed me. Not to worry, Reddish here missed you as much as you did her. It’s Christmas Eve today. Peace and joy to you and yours this Christmas season.
This article was birthed from my tears. I really hope this gets added to your favourites list as it was conceived in a state of pain.
It’s half past fighting your addictions and getting control of yourself. This is the best time to let go of those things, places and people who drain you mentally, financially, psychologically, emotionally and even of physical strength.
This feels confusing
Not actually though
Or the right word is draining
Though “draining” here is more like a situation
Actually it is my situation
How do I fight those urges?
How can I fight myself?
I doubt self-control exists
Because this shouldn’t be
Disrupting my sensibilities
Causing doubts of my normalcy
Ruining even to the last atom of self-discipline
My self will, violently ripping apart
Every next day I call a new start
Every next hour a new beginning
With every new year comes a new resolution
All of which I recklessly abandon
At his very sight
Some say I’m hooked
Others call him an obsession
A figure said I’m devoted to him
I had thought him a hobby
Then I realised he had become my friend
Gradually, he became a confidant
Then he betrayed me
Or rather I betrayed me
And then I was enslaved
He became my master
And with this came suffering and
exploitation to a great measure
Now I know
That with him, I have no
Say,
No sensibilities,
No pride
This rainbow of fallen virtues
Visible to the whole world
With an unknown climax and an unpredictable outcome
However, the beginning is no new news.
It began with cravings
And progressed with increased appetites
Then surpassed normalcy with insatiable hankering
A fallen entity I am
When he’s the one in question
A broken will I have
When he’s in the equation
He calls me
And
I answer
He doesn’t acknowledge me
Yet, I reply
In this round-a-bout of desires
I am the loser
And
In this battle of strength
For me, there is no victory
When I fight this enslavement
I fight me
I fight my will
I fight my desires
I fight him
I fight my love for peanuts
I fight PEANUTS
This situation overtly applies to me. I had spent an extravagant sum of money on peanuts that week yet I wasn’t satisfied. I wanted to keep eating peanuts.
One thing with peanuts is you can’t stop at one.
Soooooo…this piece of art was written because I had to. I mean, my feelings at the time just had to be construed and the only way to vent was through writing.
I was at a war with myself.
I wanted to eat peanuts but I refused to…and guess what!..I ended up crying that day. My mind and body needed to eat some peanuts to be calm again. It was a terrible experience.
And then I knew how drug addicts and alcohol addicts felt on a regular basis. That instant I realised…
I was *HOOKED*
Cheers🥂 to your best Christmas yet!
I love love you ❤️
Much love
Reddish 📌
It's life o'clock 
Damn! Peanuts 😅😂
This is beautiful ❤️
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😂😂 thank you 🥺❤️
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Addiction is real…we all go through one
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🥺😫Yes,it is Uche … hopefully we’d all get a grip on self control before we lose our self will to our addictions…
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Wonderful piece 👏👏
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Thank you 💕
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Wow never expected the ended 😂😂😂😂 As a UNN student I would have written garri as my obsession.
Lovely piece, keep it up 👍👍
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😂😂😂 thank you Ifechukwu🥺💕
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Why can I relate to this 🥲
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Hi Henry! I’m glad you are able to link this article to your past experiences. Cheers 🥂to the better experiences awaits us ♥️
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I thought you were talking about drugs, but addiction is same everywhere. Some classified worse than others, soon we’ll get over them… hopefully
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All addictions are very hard to get over, hopefully we get over them… I’m glad you understood the article Tife🥺♥️
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🕊️
You are good
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Thank you Crespo 🥺💕
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Somehow I can relate to this, this is a very new piece ❤️
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Thank you Thelma 🥺❤️ I’m happy to be able to portray your thoughts
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Your writing is just too good and entertaining😍
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💥🔥
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Thank you 😊💕
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Thank you Nelson 🥺🥰 I’m glad you find it entertaining ☺️
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A Masterpiece
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Thank youuu Princess 🥺❤️
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I enjoyed this bube. more!!
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Thank you Winner 🥺❤️. I’m happy you enjoyed it and you’d definitely get to read more of my articles 🥰
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Nice writing girl!, keep it up❤️
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Thank you Love 🥺❤️…I definitely will ☺️
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Yeah…peanuts are so addictive 🥲. Thank God for self-existent shaa. The piece was captivating got me wanting to know what was the addiction
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Wow … I’m happy you can relate to this piece most especially the addicting effects of peanuts… Thank you Surshi🥺❤️
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😂😂😂
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😂
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