RANDOM RAMBLINGS

Heyyyy fam😍, it’s certainly being a while and once again, I apologize for being irregular in my publications. I have no excuses whatsoever and once again I apologize. However,I want to let you know that I missed you as much as you missed me. I’m still Reddish 📌 and I hope to continue being her.

It’s past time to let out your hidden feelings,doubts and fears and to let every pain go. It’s the exact time to rebrand yourself and know your value and your worth. It’s the right time to know that you are priceless not because you have no value but because you can’t be afforded .

I had everything
She had every him
I was tall and slender
She was a little bit thicker
I was pretty, witty and sharp
She was pretty, simple and shy
I had the wit and vibes
She had the teeth and smiles

Maybe I wasn’t enough
Maybe she was all he asked for……LOL, I wanted to settle for less
And as pathetic as I was then, I was willing to bear the stress
Knowing that the less I picked was the least
I let pity cloud my judgement and chose last over best
Funny how I chose stress over rest😂
And how I acknowledged moving in a descending order

It really had me thinking, “what if I was less and to me, nobody would ever tell?”
“Could it be I overestimated my value to everyone?”
I had thought I could get anything I wanted and win any prize I wanted.
Well, Fate not he proved me wrong and help me get set on the run

Now I know that I was more than he could ever ask
And me, he could never afford
Self doubt I pushed, not gently
Anxiety I fought,like a soldier with the options kill or be killed
And Jealousy,I uprooted before it’s germination
No, I won’t say that. Maybe I got jealous at first but then self respect came knocking .

So as Dada would say “you’re royalty and that leaves you untouchable” . Or as Mother would say “you’re priceless and no one can afford you”.
As Eloho always says “everything happens at its own pace”.
Or as Ejiro wouldn’t stop saying “the best fight is with yourself, yes,the fight to find yourself” .
As Ese would say “ being second is being first to lose”
or as I would tell my loved ones “there’s no competition in destiny, run your race and wish others well”.
However,I’d continue to hold Nelson’s words close to my heart. He would always say “ DELAY ISN’T DENIAL” and I’ve come to realize that truly destiny may be delayed or changed but it would never be denied.

I don’t really know why I wrote this but I know I just had to. Initially, I titled it as Jealous but later on which is now..😂😂 I gave it another title “RANDOM RAMBLINGS” because it is the most suitable situation surrounding this unique piece of art, at least I got to give myself some credit ( hahaha…..hahaha sometimes you’ve got to flatter yourself you know especially when your flattery is the truth😂😂😂) and you should do the same too. Well, let’s be sincere here, this is a not so true experience but it happened and yes it didn’t happen (now I think I’m rambling and it’s not making sense anymore). So, I wish to express my gratitude to every special you who dedicates at least a minute to read, absorb and reflect my writings and most especially for your reviews. Your reviews do the most to me in a positive light. Thank you for being a part of my wordganization and a stakeholder in my penmily.

I love love you❤️

Much love Reddish 📌